I feel so blessed to have Paul as my husband but there are days when I am troubled ....each time I think about him and his relationship with this friend of his, I am bothered. I know they have a loving relationship and he certainly make no attempt to hide it either.
Once a week both of them will have a bonding session and that's when it hit me the most - I feel so neglected ! What annoys me even more is the way Paul would hold on to her, all gentle and loving. For sanity reasons, I'll just stay away from them. When he's in the living room with his friend, I'll give them some privacy and hide in our bedroom. When Paul and his friend move to the bedroom, I'll excuse myself and get a drink from the kitchen....
I know the relationship between them is "healthy" and they've history together and go way back which is something I can never replace. At the same time, I don't wish to interfere either. I tried to open myself to his friend but I realised that it's harder than I expect. It seems like we are from a different planet altogether .... I'm sorry but I've tried. I know my mom would be disappointed in me but then hey, I've really tried.... Paul's been assuring, he's been comforting me and telling me not to worry about the situation and he'll handle the tense emotions between me and his friend. He promise to spend only 1 week with her and I just need to relax infront of the tv. Sure, easy for him to say that.
Oh well, as long as Paul is happy and he keeps his bonding session with her once a week, I guess I have to accept reality, not to interfere with their friendship and wish them happiness together. I've managed to ambush myself and snapped pictures of him and his friend, hand in hand together ....... in different angles and in our house both looking very glam and happy. Oh yeah, Let me know what you think !
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