This is one of the days that is filled with sentimental emotions, gratitute, memories. This is Father's Day but it's also a difficult day for me as well.
In March 06, I've lost my Dad to Pneumonia. During my lifetime, losing a parent is the hardest pain, truma and lost I've ever experience. The pain is too difficult to describe, to me, it's like someone had rip off my limbs and left me to bleed out. The pain will never heal, the wounds will never recover. At the same time, I have lost my pillar of strength, my mentor, my best friend, my protector, my supporter and my advisor. My Dad was everthing to me he brought me lots of laughter and allow me to poke fun at him as well. My mom always tells me that I am the only one he will never be mad at, no matter how rebellious I am. I am truely a Daddy's girl and everyone knows it. He never raised a hand at me and he allow me to be me - spoilt, headstrong, stubborn and a mind of my own.
I remembered when I was in primary school, at times, he would surprise me by waiting at my school gate and bring me for lunch before bringing me home. During the eve of my Birthday, he would bring me to the supermarket and grab a few bags of canidies for me to share with my classmates for my birthday. To my classmates, he clearly won the Dad of the Year contest. He never say No to any of my silly request nor my outrages hobby like trapping spiders when I was a kid to rearing beta fish when I'm in my twenties. I have to confess, when I was a child, I am kind of barbaric. My hobby is to trap spiders in a glass and inspect it day after day till it leave for Spidie Heaven. I am not totally cold blooded thought, I would tell my Dad to pick up some leaves from the bushes so I can feed the spiders, hoping to convert it into a vegetarian. When the spider make a trip to Spidie Heaven, my Dad's next job would be to dispose the spider, wash the glass "prision" and then I am off to hunting my next spider. While my Mom would be shaking her head about our hobby. When I am at my curious phase and super curious about the structure of a watch, with bright ideas, I like to smash the watch and see it's construction. My dad happily give me a hammer and see me smash it.
My Dad was always supportive of all my "hobby of the month" phase. He's like my cheerleader and my partner in crime. During my Beta Fish phase, his job would be washing the fish bowl, feeding them and when i decide to have more than 1 fish, we would skip to the pet store together and he would choose the fishes with me, we would then sit in the living room together and stare at the fish bowl like it's Discovery Channel. While my mom would think we have nothing better to do. To me, we are having our Father and Daughter bonding.
When I first got my driver's licence, he is the first one who sits beside me while we go cruising around the neighbourhood. He was the one who taught me to drive an auto car while I was taught to steer with a manual stick.
I learned that beside being a great father, he is also a super grandpa. When the triplets came into our life, my Dad is estatic. His love and devotion for the triplets are incredible. As his favourite grandchild, Rachael spend most of her time with him. He would bring Rachael into his room at night and pat Rachael to sleep. He would be feeding her during her feeding time and pouting at me when I didn't play with Rachael. He is totally in love with the 3 of them. He enjoys playing with them and bringing them for their evening walk and showing off the triplets in our neighbourhood. He would always be beaming and grinning whenever one of the neigbhours start praising how cute the triples are. I'll always tease him about showing off and behaving like one of the "Aunties" in the block. He never fail to call me daily at work informing me about the triplet's progress even thought I just left home like 3 hours ago.
One thing about my Dad that I truely admire is how he wear his emotions on his face. He's never fake and never put on an act. He is the way he is. I guess that's how I am now, I learn it from him and I am proud of it. Everyone around me can read from my facial expression how much I like that person or how much I detest them. From his friends, I know my Dad is a loyal friend, he never turn his back on them and is always there for them. My Dad taught me the meaning of life - To Be Happy. I recall during my working days, he would often ask me if I am happy and if I said no, he would tell me to leave my job. His reasoning was " Why be happy for 1 day in a month which is your pay day and be miserable for the rest of the 30 days in the month ? Be happy for all 31 days of the month." Beside that, I've also inherit my dad's drinking skills which I know he is proud of (I like to think that) .
There is just so many happy and wonderful memories of him that I can go on and on. My friends know how much I adore my Dad and how close I am to him. My only regret that is he didn't stay long enough in my life to watch me get married and start my only family but I would like to think that he is always here with me and his gift by giving me wonderful memories that I can recall whenever I miss him. When others ask me how my Dad is, I can proudly tell them that he is the Greatest Dad any girl would want and I am proud to have him as mine.
I dedicate this page to him for being my Dad and raising me to be the woman that I am today. Even thought he is gone now, but to me, memories of him will always be with me.... there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of him. That is how great an imprint he have left in my life.
HAPPY FATHER'S DAD and I hope you know how much I love You.