Today I vow to TAKE A STEP FORWARD AND NEVER LOOK BACK !
I don't deny that there are many days when I miss Singapore. I miss my life, I miss the convenient transportation system that Singapore offers. I miss the comfort of my family and I miss my friends. But what good is there to always look back ?
Question : Why does God put our eyes infront of us ? Is it because he want us to always look forward, move forward and strive towards it ??? I have no answer to that but I know there is definately a reason.
This is NOW and I am Here. There is no denying, there is no escaping. I have to be brave and embrace myself and face each day chin up. So taking a cab here cost a leg and an arm but I will be brave and drive. Afterall, I did go through the gruesome driving lessons, annoying theory test and horrific practical driving tests in Singapore. So I am scared of driving, at most I'll die and take someone down with me (haahaahaahaa). So I am not familiar with the routes here, I have a husband who can or will be my Driver and I know who love to do so.
So my BFF and Blood Sisters are not with me. But we have our weekly online chats and I know that I can ring them when I want to. So I can't see my nieces and nephew but I can hear them screaming on the background whenever I ring home. So I don't have any family here but I have a great Sister-in-law whom I clicked with. So I miss doing whatever I want but I have a husband who lets me do whatever I want.
SO Life really isn't that bad if I look at it from a different perspective. And I am paying attention to the butterflies for a change instead of looking for the storms. Granted, I may not see the rainbows now but it's still nice to see the butterfiles....
I don't deny that there are many days when I miss Singapore. I miss my life, I miss the convenient transportation system that Singapore offers. I miss the comfort of my family and I miss my friends. But what good is there to always look back ?
Question : Why does God put our eyes infront of us ? Is it because he want us to always look forward, move forward and strive towards it ??? I have no answer to that but I know there is definately a reason.
This is NOW and I am Here. There is no denying, there is no escaping. I have to be brave and embrace myself and face each day chin up. So taking a cab here cost a leg and an arm but I will be brave and drive. Afterall, I did go through the gruesome driving lessons, annoying theory test and horrific practical driving tests in Singapore. So I am scared of driving, at most I'll die and take someone down with me (haahaahaahaa). So I am not familiar with the routes here, I have a husband who can or will be my Driver and I know who love to do so.
So my BFF and Blood Sisters are not with me. But we have our weekly online chats and I know that I can ring them when I want to. So I can't see my nieces and nephew but I can hear them screaming on the background whenever I ring home. So I don't have any family here but I have a great Sister-in-law whom I clicked with. So I miss doing whatever I want but I have a husband who lets me do whatever I want.
SO Life really isn't that bad if I look at it from a different perspective. And I am paying attention to the butterflies for a change instead of looking for the storms. Granted, I may not see the rainbows now but it's still nice to see the butterfiles....
Oh ! Don't get me wrong, I am not trying to forget my roots , where I come from and who I am. Infact, I am proud of who I am and where I come from. If I can, I will even plant my Singapore flag right at my door step ! But while I am holding on to my roots, I would like to embrace and welcome another culture and life.
I would love to think that I have gained enlightenment or perhaps the sun, shine at me at a right angel today ! But as long as I have a tomorrow, it means that I still stand a chance to make things better and so it really isn't that bad....
What about you ??? =)
5 comments:
Dee, im glad you are trying to think positively and try to think of this as your new home, rather than a place to visit. keep in mind one thing... i know things come up and there are disppointments in life but remember that they can be anywhere, in any country.
this is my home and i have lived in orlando my entire life but as i am trying to get used to this very difficult institution called marriage, there are plenty of times i think of running away to a different city or even a different country at times! so i can understand how often you think of returning home. but at least we have each other to "run" to as we are both trying to adjust to these new lives we have taken on. thanks for being there for me and thanks for inspiring me to move forward instead of always wondering "what in the hell did i get myself into and why did i marry this PIG-HEADED man????" men will be men no matter what country we go to so we might as well try to love the ones weve got! hahahaha!!!
Sommer, I agree with you. Problems will tag along with us regardless of where we go. Instead of taking it as a problem, might as well look at it as a challenge.
I am glad that I inspire you but often, we both often inspire each other without realising.
Hey, about the wondering, You are not alone and I am sure that there are plenty of married women out there who also wonder "what the hell have they got themselves into !"
Like you said, might as well love the man we've got... Oh, and be grateful that yours is not a MCP ! =)
Dear SIL of Diana
I fully agreed what was highlighted. In all marriage, there are bounds to be ups ups & downs downs especially critical in the 1st 3 years of being officially married & staying together.
There are times when we looked back & asked ourselves those similar questions over & over again. Bottomline is -- Life still goes on no matter how many questions we wander about marriage.
Remember, you are not alone in this world to face "pig headed man"..There are many more others...
Think positive always:)
Thanks Dee and Tricia! Women are so much more understanding! Many times I wonder why God didnt make me a lesbian!!! hahaha!!! but i guess, we all know that us women can be bitches as well! hahaha!!!
Tricia i hope there is some kind of miracle that permits me to go to Singapore for Dee and my brothers wedding so i can meet you and the rest of Dee's wonderful friends!
We women can be -- not just bitches BUT SUPERB bitches.. Yeah am looking forward to P & D's wedding too...
Meantime always think positive :)
Kudos !!
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